what is normal?

can i just have a normal life?

without worrying what should i do tomorrow,

what should i wear,

which mask i should take,

how much money do i have?

or how much money i have to spent tomorrow..

or which words i have to pick to talk to these person...

can i just have a normal life?

without worrying about everyone...

just me...

For The Widows In Paradise, For The Fatherless In Ypsilanti

For the last 2 days, i've been reading my old plurk's timeline for the old time sake.

Sometimes , i laughed for all the drama i've made, and trying to remember what's the story behind every plurk (tweet is the new plurk, btw).

and then, i stopped to this video.

Sufjan Stevens - For The Widows In Paradise, For the Featherless In Ypsilanti

I remember when i accidently found this video, i just freezed. amazed by the sound of the Banjo he played. it just took me to another state of mind that i cannot explain.

well, i guess y'all shud hear for yourself.

it's been a while

Ok.
i know i know i know,
its been more than a year since my last post.
since i am a really moody person.

....

1 year and 8 months

date and time changes

so does life

a full week writing will never be enough to write everything down

....

i always have this passion to read..

literature reading to be exact...

and this willing to write..

but i dont know somehow..

i never managed to commit myself to write.

but this (pointing to my head),

has a lot of things goin on inside.

and i just stuck into my another half in another account..

u named it...friendster, plurk, myspace, facebook, tumblr, and currently, the super happening a man cant live without; CWIDDER aka twitter..

*fyi, i just deactivated my facebook account since it became too annoying*

recently,

i've been reading my friend's blog fadilpinandita with his #30harimenulis..

it leads me to another blogs of literature..

from there, i realize that i miss writing sooo muuuch...

eventhough i never stop posting something (pictures, words, and another inspirational post received from another account) from my Tumblr account, this cudn't stop my desire to write..

well,

from this,

i promised myself to start writing and reading again.

i dont know how this will end *another failed commitment, or i can push myself to write everything that bothers me*

but at least i will give myself another chance.

soo..

see you in another post of mine..

ciao!