sally's . lullabies

i can't thanked you enough

2012-02-01T01:17:00.003+07:00

Yang ada di kepala gw saat ini adalah: harus cepat2 ditulis, supaya ga lupa! Lupa apa? lupa akan every single details feeling gw saat ini, yang ada di kepala ini.

Just to make sure, if something happened dan gw baca tulisan ini, gw ingat akan orang2 ini.

And I believe, this isn't just our

paths crossed together. Bertemu di fase hidup gw yang lainnya.

You know, setiap orang akan punya b

anyak fase dalam hidupnya, fase sekolah, fase pacaran, fase kuliah, fase pertama kali patah hati, fase bekerja, dll.

And I am extremely lucky I've met these people, orang2 dalam salah satu fase gw belajar bertanggung jawab.

It wasn't an easy journey, I must say.

But here I am, standing at the very end.

Excited yet afraid.

2 hari ini merupakan hari yang amat sangat emosional buat gw *actually malah udah dari semingguan yang lalu*

Membereskan personal folder gw, kemudian 'delete'.

Me-log0ff-kan semua automatic sign-in account gw.

Memindahkan semua data, me

mbuka foldernya satu2, dan pintu memori pun terbuka, membayangkan setiap hal yang telah terjadi dari file yang dibuka.

Menyadari bahwa ada moment terakhir saya mengendarai Avanza Hitam *sengaja duduk diam selama 5 menit hanya untuk meresapi berada di belakang kemudi mobil.

Dan kemudian,

Membereskan semua personal items di meja gw, sampe meja gw kembali ke keadaan hari pertama gw ada di lantai 5 gedung Graha Surya Internusa.

Saat2 terakhir menggunakan email vaudrey@id.loreal.com *gw sampe cc email ini ke account pribadi gw*

I try to remembered every little details from every step I took at this office.

Bagaimana rasanya ada di cubicle gw *gw bahkan sampe seposesif 'tidak rela membayangkan akan ada orang lain duduk di meja ini*

Bagaimana rasanya duduk dan ngobrol di lounge.

Merokok dan curhat di tangga.

Langkah2 bangga terakhir saya, bahwa saya juga penghuni gedung ini *saya bahkan bisa dengan sombongnya melewati pemeriksaan tas di depan pintu masuk padahal baru naik ojek*

Menikmati sakit terakhir berjalan di parking lot setelah seharian menggunakan heels 9cm.

Mengingat bahwa saya pernah jutaan kali melewati lorong dengan 6 macam visual berbeda yang mewakili brand yang berbeda.

Dan kemudian,

Wajah2 ini yang ada di kepala saya.

Orang2 yang selalu jadi tempat tujuan berlari ketika hari2 sudah mulai penat, atau sekedar mengusir kebosanan, atau juga terpengaruh suara2 menyenangkan di sudut Shu Uemura, YSL dan PCI.

Orang2 yang setiap paginya datang ke cubicle saya, hanya untuk say Hi, atau sekedar ajakan merokok di tangga darurat *absen di stairbucks we called it*

Orang2 yang selalu dapat diajak ribut, beragumentasi, until we agreed to disagree.

Orang2 yang selalu ada di sana, bukan hanya sekedar berada di sana karena harus ada di sana, tetapi orang2 yang selalu stand-by dengan segala cerita, jokes, hiburan, pikiran, dan mimpi.

Orang2 yang inspirasional buat saya.

And I love them. Now and then.

*maafkan, nanti akan saya upload foto kalian semua, harddisk masih berantakan.. :D

what is normal?

2011-01-22T23:49:00.005+07:00

can i just have a normal life?

without worrying what should i do tomorrow,

what should i wear,

which mask i should take,

how much money do i have?

or how much money i have to spent tomorrow..

or which words i have to pick to talk to these person...

can i just have a normal life?

without worrying about everyone...

just me...

For The Widows In Paradise, For The Fatherless In Ypsilanti

2011-01-09T23:53:00.004+07:00

For the last 2 days, i've been reading my old plurk's timeline for the old time sake.

Sometimes , i laughed for all the drama i've made, and trying to remember what's the story behind every plurk (tweet is the new plurk, btw).

and then, i stopped to this video.

Sufjan Stevens - For The Widows In Paradise, For the Featherless In Ypsilanti

I remember when i accidently found this video, i just freezed. amazed by the sound of the Banjo he played. it just took me to another state of mind that i cannot explain.

well, i guess y'all shud hear for yourself.

it's been a while

2011-01-07T11:12:00.002+07:00

Ok.
i know i know i know,
its been more than a year since my last post.
since i am a really moody person.

....

1 year and 8 months

date and time changes

so does life

a full week writing will never be enough to write everything down

....

i always have this passion to read..

literature reading to be exact...

and this willing to write..

but i dont know somehow..

i never managed to commit myself to write.

but this (pointing to my head),

has a lot of things goin on inside.

and i just stuck into my another half in another account..

u named it...friendster, plurk, myspace, facebook, tumblr, and currently, the super happening a man cant live without; CWIDDER aka twitter..

*fyi, i just deactivated my facebook account since it became too annoying*

recently,

i've been reading my friend's blog fadilpinandita with his #30harimenulis..

it leads me to another blogs of literature..

from there, i realize that i miss writing sooo muuuch...

eventhough i never stop posting something (pictures, words, and another inspirational post received from another account) from my Tumblr account, this cudn't stop my desire to write..

well,

from this,

i promised myself to start writing and reading again.

i dont know how this will end *another failed commitment, or i can push myself to write everything that bothers me*

but at least i will give myself another chance.

soo..

see you in another post of mine..

ciao!

2009-04-04T00:39:00.002+07:00

if only there's sumtin i cud do..

i wud give anything just to make it easier...

*a daughter who can only send u all the loves and prays

kapan-kapan

2009-03-04T02:16:00.002+07:00

okeh...

dia udah kawin...

knapa coba?

klo pun ada yg harus kawin lebih dulu daripada gw...knp dia yaaa orangnya??

the last guy on earth i wud be expecting to be married before me...

say...i will be dead at 50...

n now i'm 23...

so...

i spent almost half of my entire life doin nothin now...

ckckck...

boro2 kawin dah ah...

TA aja blm tau mau pake judul apa...

okeh...

dia udah kawin...

trus gw kapan???

KAPAN-KAPAN ya beb???

sigh!

workshop hati bersama kawan2

2009-03-01T02:32:00.003+07:00

workshop hati untuk saya

dan beberapa teman saya

mengembalikan hari2 yg sudah mulai

dimakan oleh rutinitas

dan inilah para pesertanya:

of kros!!

pidAlaipidkudalarikejepit

dheypipigendutdaridulu

astrimbakbagussemua

shoot them in their heart!!

2009-01-12T22:23:00.002+07:00

why blame israeli....

why blame palestines...

why dont just blame the one that put their guns up??

.......

kenapa ga tembak aja orang-orang yang juga rela ikutan berperang untuk membela orang yang berperang???

hah??

tell me mr. bob

2008-12-24T00:31:00.002+07:00

amazing houses

great cars

inspirational stories of life

huge companies

lovely kittens and dogs

fast horse n nice ranch

what a life!!

but i p i t y you!

boy n girl vs new year

2008-12-20T21:28:00.002+07:00

seorang teman dekat baru saja bercerita (sebut saja dia 'girl') bahwa tiba2 saja dia membenci tahun baru...

alasannya sebenernya cukup sederhana, namun terlalu rumit untuk dijelaskan disini,,,(atau mungkin juga sebenernya ini adalah salah satu cara saya menghindari menulis blog yg seperti novel),,,

yang jelas,,,sudah pasti berhubungan dengan si boy,,,

hingga pada akhirnya,,,,si girl beranggapan bahwa si boy tidak ingin membuatnya senang hanya karena egonya sendiri,,,

well,,,

kita tunggu saja sampai nanti si girl menceritakan kisah taun barunya pada saya lagi,,,

catch ya soon,,,

ps: mungkin ini hanya khayalan saya saja, karena ingin menulis blog,,,u decide,,,

balada handphone

2008-12-20T20:18:00.001+07:00

percuma beli charger

klo akhirnya hanya menghasilkan

komunikasi yg busuk!

untung saja si batere baru belum terbeli

.....

aye aye captain!!

2008-12-20T20:15:00.001+07:00

cape jadi kapten kapal

yang harus selalu tau kemana arah

si kapal harus pergi

the new new-year

2008-12-19T13:00:00.003+07:00

my 10 commandment of new year's resolutions

or more i guess

1. finishing my never-ending study...

*it reminds me that i shud working on my 'mayor 5' on the first place, instead of writing a blog,,,hahhahah

2. try to grow a tree money in my backyard,,,

*as if i had a backyard,,,hahaha

*or at least a pot-tree,,,

3. find a will to study hard n work hard...

u know...there's no plan without a will...

4. grow my hair...

i always want a cute-nice-curly hair do,,,but i always cant control myself to cut my hair into the new-strangest-look one...

5. improving my english, as if i'm a native,,,while taking a deutsch course,,,

it wudnt be that hard i guess,,,i mean, i'm still improving on my bahasa indonesia, n still working on my bahasa gaul,,,

6. making out on *at least* 3 new places...

u know what i mean,,,the combination of travelling, alcohol, n new weather makes a great vibration,,,hahahhahaha

7. always buy *at least one* new high-end gadget every year,,,

not intending to be a gadget freak,,,but please admit it,,,it makes ur life much more easier, happier, n yet stylish,,,sooner or later, u need the technology though,,,

8. make a good photograph as much as i can,,,

people always makes a photograph every memorable moment,,,amount of good picture u had is the amount of good days u had...

9. be a little more patient

life is tough,,,i dont need any emotion to get another more trouble,,,btw,,,its the hardest thing 4 me,,,i mean, look at the traffic here, look at the people around u,,,don't u just wanna throw ur emotion to them??ahahha,,,,

10 to 100 it cud be the list of shoes i wanna buy, or dresses i wanna wear,,,it's all about fashion thingies,,,i mean, after all of the emotions, the traffic, the-never-ending-work-n-study stories, i need something to boozes my energy,,,

well then,,,

all i can say is,,,

happy new year

dont care how much your resolution is

versus

2008-12-19T01:42:00.002+07:00

senang melihat mereka senang

while mine is not,,,,

under the question mark

???

sorry...

2008-12-17T22:48:00.001+07:00

but...

i'm almost DONE

bye-bye patience

mind = you n them

2008-12-17T22:42:00.002+07:00

i saw a rainbow

in the middle of my rainy mind

Morning, alone n lost

2008-11-05T06:53:00.002+07:00

Gile..gw ada di tengah2 pacific place yg blm buka!gara2 standby kpagìan..

Kmaren si telat n hrs bgn pagi2..tp skarang bgini..kampret bgt!

Damn u blackout!

2008-10-18T01:37:00.002+07:00

Hehe..emg dasar suka brmanfaat ya mati lampu itu..
Iseng2 jepret2 pake kamera hp..pencet2 sana sini kok tiba2 bs posting blog ya?
Ini sumpah cuma buat ngetes doang?krn agak ribet jg bikin accoun mobile ini..

Yasudalah..cukup pegel jg ngepost pake hp..

not so virusproof

2008-10-02T00:04:00.007+07:00

hihihihi,,,

gw kena karma,,,

karma omongan gw sendiri,,,

gara2 suka bangga dengan mac gw yang virusproof,,,malah windows gw skarang yg kena virus,,,

jadilah gw seharian mencari, menginstall, scanning, uninstall, download lagi, install lagi, scanning lagi, uninstall lg,,,nyari sofwer yg bisa ngapus virus spyware gw yg kampret!! mata gw sampe pegeeeeelll bgt ngeliatin progress bar,,,,20%, 50%, 73%,,,damn!! feels like centuries!!jaman udah canggih tp kok klo gini rasanya tetep susah yaaa??

akhirnya,,,gw putuskan untuk re-install lagi,,,dan ini jg ga gampang,,,nyari cd windows yg tadinya gw lupa gw taro dimana,,,,dan skarang lagi progress bar lagi menginstall si windows,,,,,at it almost 7 hours already!!

blm lagi nanti ribut sama yg namanya install sofwer2 macam CAD, MAX, sketchup,,,trus perang pula dengan serial number yang gw jg lupa nyimpen,,,untung klo masih ada crack ato apanyalah itu,,,

ga tidur nih kayanya,,,,kok jadi kaya ngerjain tugas ya??

tp untung bgt siii,,,ini kejadiannya pas lagi libur,,,bukan pas saat2 deadline,,,,dan besok adalah submission day-nya,,,bisa mati keriting gw disini,,,,

yasudalah yaaa,,,daripada nanti gw ga bisa kerja,,,

ingin menangis rasanya,,,

makan gengsi

2008-09-27T18:06:00.003+07:00

iiiiihhhh!!!

gw sebel deh,,,knapa sih orang2 slalu makan gengsi??

knapa siiih slalu ada marah2??

gini deh,,,pada saat ada 2 pihak ribut2 mengenai sesuatu hal,,,masing2 pasti mempertahankan pendapatnya sendiri,,,ga mau ngalah,,,,padahal masing2 juga ngerti maksud di pihak lainnya kan?? sama2 tau maksud dan tujuan sebenernya apa,,,,trus knapa musti brantem? karena gengsi!! iya ga siii??

padahal mah,,,,klo sama2 mau denger,,,sama2 mau ngerti,,,ga perlu ada yang namanya ribut2,,,,akhirnya,,,,,cuma kemakan gengsi,,,dan cuma jadi gondok sendiri sama yg namanya kangen,,,

klo kata coldplay

a warning sign

i missed the good part and then i realized

i started looking and the bubble burst

i started looking for excuses

come on in,

i've gotta tell u what a state i'm in

i've gotta tell u in my loudest tones

that i started looking for a warning sign

when the truth is,

i miss you

yeah the truth is,

that i miss u so

so,

i crawl back into your open arms....

*waning sign - coldplay

PS: thanx buat maymoy yg udah bikin gw lebih memperhatikan lirik lagu ini,,,

bantuin

2008-09-26T17:31:00.003+07:00

duuuhh

post ini gw buat beneran dalam jangka waktu 1 jam dari post sebelumnya,,,bukan karena gw lagi lucu2nya menulis blog,,,,tp gw beneran hopeless meng-customize blog gw ini,,,even mengganti bahasa dari bahasa indonesia ke bahasa inggris aja gw ga bisa!! trus gw mau bikin hit counter aja ga bisa!! trus gw jg mau masukkin link blog temen2 gw jg ga bisa!!!

yang berhasil gw cuma bisa masukkin chat box doang!! itu juga setelah stengah jam baru bisa!!

ayo dooong!! bantuin!!

hello from mars

2008-09-26T16:21:00.000+07:00

hello

hallo

hai

aloha

ato apapunlah sebutannya,,,sebenernya gw cuma mau memperkenalkan diri,,,,

nama saya VALENTINE TIARA AUDREY,,,mamah saya biasa memanggil 'deeee' (nadanya panjang), ato klo lagi marah biasanya manggil 'adhe audreeeeeeeyyyyy' (nadanya makin panjang dan makin tinggi),,,adik saya biasa memanggil 'hallo kak',,,,pacar saya memanggil dengan 'ai' klo dalam kondisi normal, atau 'tai lo yang' klo dalam konteks bcanda dan marah skaligus,,,,sebutan palling banyak adalah dari teman2 saya,,,mulai dari tie, ty, ra, tir, cil, sampe dengan teganya ada yg bilang 'miss u biatch!',,,,yaaaahh,,,klo kata orang dulu siii,,,,what's in the name?,,,,apapun namanya, bunga mawar akan tetap wangi,,,ya kan? *tsaaaaah

trus2,,,

hmmm,,,

apa yaaa,,,,

oya,,,dari dulu gw emang pengen bikin blog,,,bukan cuma pengen ikut2an tren *walopun emang gw suka ikut2an tren*,,,,bukan karena salah satu sodara sedarah gw jg udah bikin blog,,,bukan jg karena keterbatasan waktu untuk nulis blog,,,,tapi ya krn i'm not a blogger kind of person,,,dari dulu gw punya banyak diary lucu2,,,dari yang gede sampe yang kecil,,,dari yg tipis sampe yg tebel,,,,dari yang ada gemboknya,,,,sampe gw pakein gembok beneran,,,cuma alhasil,,,,gw hanya mengumpulkan diarynya,,,nulisnya mah yaaa,,,depan2nya doang,,,,mudah2an blog ini nasipnya ga kaya diary2 gw yg dulu,,,mudah2an gw masih bisa rajin ngepost tulisan2 gw berikutnya,,,,*gw mulai membayangkan klo yg gw post nanti ga ada tulisannya,,,tp cuma foto2 doang,,,hihihihi,,,

udah ah,,,gw mau mulai mengatur tampilan my new baby ini,,,,

hope u enjoy the rest,,,